My big announcement!

As if I couldn't be embarrassed enough this week, here's another story. I told my dad I would help him with cleaning up the leaves and fall in the backyard. I went outside to ask him where to start and a neighbor was with my dad in the garage. My parents have lived in the same house for 32 years and most of the neighbors are older people. One of these neighbors was with my dad and asked me "when is it coming?" I was confused but said something like when it does. He rephrased and it wasn't until I had asked my dad the question and left the conversation, the neighbor thought I was pregnant. Oh yeah, weight issue has reared its ugly head. I knew such a thing would happen at some point but hadn't as of yet. Guess the religious community would never assume that were true and I didn't even really understand the nature of what the neighbor was saying until I walked away. Don't know if it's good that I basically hold all my weight in my middle so look pregnant as opposed to big all over, although with recent pics I know I look big all over.

So the point of this besides embarrassing myself in cyberspace, is that I did check out the information my doctor gave about the possibility being considered that quick weight gain that can't be lost may be the result of a virus, much like in the 90s when ulcers were discovered to be a bacteria that responded to a certain kind of antibiotics and ulcer all gone! I've searched the internet and found some information. Apparently there are some studies that show that people who have a certain virus are like 67% overweight and can't lose. Info here.  Kicker is that there is presently no antibiotic or treatment so spending the $450 to get tested pretty much just tells you if you have the virus or not.  Not sure if I'll get that test but my big announcement is....I'm going to stop drinking until I see you in New York.  And by stop drinking I mean I'll only drink when my dad opens wine (like once every couple weeks) or when we go to mexican food (one beer).  I'm interested to see if taking that away will lead to weight loss, as alcohol is the only indulgence I have.  I have issues with dairy, don't drink soda, don't eat chocolate, really just like savory things.  So the only thing I haven't cut away is alcohol.  I'm also going to check out the gym down the street and see if for a month of no alcohol and regular exercise if I get anywhere with weight loss.  I tried this over the summer although I just cut back on alcohol, so now I'm going to really give it a try.  One month.  I'll make up for it in New York with you ;-).  My concern is that cutting away alcohol may not reduce the amount of calories I have because often having a glass or two of wine would quell hunger so now with more hunger, will I eat more food so therefore not cutting back on calories?  I've downloaded some menus for calorie control.  I'll have to wait and see if that does anything.  If it doesn't, well guess I'll end up getting tested for the virus and wait for an antibiotic or treatment for this virus, if I have it.  So frustrating after having been 113 pounds for 30 years.  And most frustrating is that doctors don't believe that I am actually eating what I keep in a food diary (a food diary, what?) or that I'm actually going for the walks I note on a calendar (really a calendar of walking?).  I'll be honest when I screw up and I want credit when I'm being honest.  I can not eat for several days when I have the flu and not lose any weight, so there has to be another explanation other than my supposed lack of eating control.  Sucks.