Specific Thoughts

It's been a long time since you and I have really chatted, your trip out to Oregon, including the east coast snow mess and then your time out here, I feel like so much has happened!

So I am giving great thought to my goal of being back in my house by spring and given that the people renting my house are in their 80s and will likely have a heart attack when they find they have to move, I will give them at least two months notice, more if they need it or want it.  Fortunately, some of my furniture went to the home of my mom's friend and he lives alone so it should be in good shape.  And I shipped a lot of my pots/pans/silverware, since my mom had purchased nice things for me.  My mom bought T-Bone's bed and a desk when he left, overpaying for it I guess so that he would have some traveling money.  But my plan is to end up in this bed which is an amazing experience.  I plan to control more of my sleep environment, food environment, basically everything will be up to me and my cats.  Yes, I will be crazy cat lady but it will also include champagne so not so bad!  I could ebay all my gorgeous clothes that are laughably tiny, like ordering clothes for my soon to arrive niece.  I have a fabulous new computer and I could hit up hulu or watch Netflix or DVDs.  I could possibly make some peace with my religious experience, even attending a congregation that is suspiciously close to our favorite beer and fondue spot.  Even as the snow falls and the cold wind whips around, keeps me buoyed. 

Really all of this depends on 1) if I can find a job and/or 2) if unemployment continues on the federal level as it has been.  I could squeak by on unemployment, no more fun happy hours or trips across the country to drink with my dear friend but it would be summer and I could eat delicious fruits and take walks in my lovely neighborhood and maybe do some local pet sitting or whatever.

And as I think of this, I really would love to have you back here.  And I don't mean simply the west coast.  How cool would it be if you were here and we could start that pet sitting enterprise and/or organization business.  We are both good at those things, we're equally rather unmotivated and lazy so I kinda think we wouldn't bug each other.  Granted we probably wouldn't make a lot of money due to that but maybe more of my killer instinct would return if something in my life was succeeding.  Something to nosh on.  I think those businesses would work great, if you lived downtown or towards your parents and I stayed westside in my house, we could cover a great deal of this fair city, meeting for happy hours would be our corporate meetings, thus a write off!  We could travel for conventions on pet sitting or organizing, and count it off while we work!  I think it's fabulous.  Of course I want you to be ever so happy, whether in the east or in the sunny part of the US.  That's cool too because I could visit.  We seriously need to hit up the desert together. 

With my upcoming trip back east, my thoughts turn to T-Bone, my T-Bone not your T-Bone Two (hehehe).  I miss him, guess I couldn't help it.  He left, he came back kinda, he left again.  I do want to see him and then something inside of me throws up.  So I guess the right answer is to not see him while there.  He's not asking and I haven't told him I'll be back around.  I would love to know how he is, I would love to give him a big hug and leave him with the best impression of me ever.  Oh, now that I write that, maybe that is more the answer.  Meet him, be sparkling and amazing and fun, not wanting or hoping or anything, and leave him with that great impression, not those crazy email exchanges that left me feeling odd.  Does that sound mature and healthy or crazy and deluded?

Miss you much.  Hope your new job is filling in some of the sadness.  Remember you see me in 16 days!  I will have champagne!  We will eat brunch!  We will skate in the park!  We will be fun and flirty and fabulous!  And we will sleep in awesome beds like the one I posted above.  We might not be able to get up in the mornings.....good we'll stay up all night....call me when it strikes your fancy....